Little Memories

It is crazy what we can remember. I have mentioned this in past posts. I remember my best friends and kindergarten teacher like it was yesterday. That says something about them. They impacted my life and I wonder if they even know it?

Ms. Banks was my kindergarten teacher. All I remember is she was so nice and caring and really took care of her students. I am sure she has no clue who I even am anymore. I tried to new age find her with social media and haven’t been successful.

My best friend Desiree. Unfortunately growing up racism existed and I didn’t fully understnad it. I liked whoever was nice and played with whoever would be my friend. My daughter is the same way and I love it. She was my best friend and we had matching purple tye die jumpsuits. We would coordinate when we were going to match. I moved away to a new school and we lost touch. We were so little and our parents were not friends. I hate that for me, but no pity parties here.

I did look up Desiree and found her. Small town vibes remember? I think she graduated top of her class and is now a doctor. I would give anything to know if I am a core memory in her head, like she is in mine? Connecting with the past has never been my goal, but it shapes so much of who we are, that as I get older I want to reach out to the people that I lost contact with.

I am curious is this is normal. Do you remember people in your past? I have some people that have added me on Facebook that were in my life when I was younger and we follow each other in silence. We don’t speak and we may like a post of each others here and there, but is that a real connection?

How are you with seeing people or reconnecting? Are you open to it? Would you want to? Just curious is this just a weird thing that I sometimes will think and obsess over how life would had been if I had a friend from kindergarten? Am I ok knowing I don’t have any friendships from childhood? How about you? Are you Ok?